EMO EXTREAMLY EMO TODAY saw something true yet still lie to myself dose tat thing carry wat it means to be? i wan some answer.... ,,,,, ,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,, i feel myself so useless... loser.... when things slowly disappear u appear right in front of me again this has happen few times... s'pore is tat small... no contact no much of chatting yet things just happen... is this faith??? no i dont really think so.... i just need to hear the answer right in front of u to clear my feeling.a confirmation.... i will accept wat u give me.... now i really need someone by my side look at those couples they are so sweet... and i think is time for me find myself a gf ba lol if someone wants me lol... emptyness... ,,, ,,,, ,,,,, after term test ,my brain just shut down ... dont even want to study... lazy... skip classes.... cant catch up with Dfund and Facom and may be math1 ... i know i need to ... but lazyness.... everything has push to last min just dont really care knowing main exam is near haiz.... how to pull myself out from this... , , , dont worry i will solve it myself just want to vomit all this thing out feel better this way=p . . . and there is bball today damn hate it play happily with 1 uncle somemore play with him whenever he came i just accidently hit the ball and hit his teeth or something he then think i play rought but actually i didnt know i hit him then he came charging at me wat the hell i never say faul very good liao u think u really play very good meh? there is so many steps u went beyond 3 steps... tot i never see ar... tot u are the nice player but actually u are not i am not going to give my respect to u le next time we play again i make sure ur ball flying everywhere....damn pissed... , , , later on have a match with some other friends dont really used to play with them bec they are much skilled player than i am not used to their playing style.... still have a gap...i need to train myself up to tat standard but i also need the teamwork their teamwork is good and i never train myself to such lvl of teamwork... so ya while playing with them i kept missed and didnt play really well and blame myself for tat .... and tat's why i feel lousy... . . thx for chatting with me ^^ kelly haha... not to worry all this feeling may go away 1 day or 2....
